Two Seats

Fujian Tu Lou, China

There are always two seats and sides. Some people might love you and some might hate you for what you did. No matter what your intentions are. The bad news is some can't forgive what you've done, even though you didn't mean it that way-even though it was just a misunderstanding. That's pretty common. Anyway it's already midnight now so I'll make it brief and short:

If somebody intentionally or unintentionally hurt you,

You probably can't think of what you learn at the moment but you'll be thanking them someday. 

That's what Miley taught me.

Balance

Do you want to know why I put the picture there? Some of you might think that the composition is not good because it's heavier in the left side. So here's the meaning behind that:

Try to imagine the flower as good things and the plain dark wall as bad things. 

In life, good things happen and so do the bad ones.We lose something, we gain something. We give something and we receive something too. It's like a chain of actions and reactions. I actually don't want the bad things and good things to be balance. Less bad things and more great things would be great :) But can we choose that? Can we choose to be happy?
People love to say "I want to be happy and successful!" and I thought it was an optimistic thought, although it's obviously naive. And for the first time in my life, I heard someone said, "that is so ridiculous! There's no way a person can feel happy and successful in one exact time. To succeed means to have what we've always wanted, and to be happy means to want all that we've already had." I've heard about the second statement before, it says "Happiness is not about having what you want but wanting what you have" but I never thought about the first statement. I'll think about it later....

All that I can assume form the statements is if you want to be happy, all you have to do is changing your mind set. I know it's not easy, but if there's a will then there's a way. Actually, there are more than a way, it's just a matter of choice. But honestly, I have to admit that being happy all the time is not a choice. Being grateful is good, but to be held back because of it is not always good. Sometimes you have to get out from your comfort zone and fall and bleed and cry and... fight. And it means you have to let go the happiness.

So let me change the question. Should we choose to be happy?

Soundless

I love the feeling of getting a little bit gloomy on rainy days. I know it's a bit weird, but I admit I kinda like the combination of rain, music, sadness, and warm food or drink. The rain fell today, and I was drowned in my own thoughts about him. That particular guy. I still can hear it clearly, the sound of my guitar merged with the sound of the raindrops touching the roof, and that inexplicable feelings.

I wanna tell him how I feel. I wish I have the courage to speak up. It's not as easy as what Taylor Swift wrote in her songs, not as simple as what we used to see in hollywood movies. It's the reality, it's the fact, it's not a dream. There are so much to be afraid of. His friends, his words, his thoughts, his eyes, his brother, his... I don't know, everything! He might think I'm just an idiotic dreamer, or a rat trying to be a butterfly. Shame on me..

Can he just read my mind? Cause every time I try to speak to him, I can't hear my own voice. Every time our eyes meet, I can't help it but look away... Almost every night I imagine things I wanna say to him the next day and I ended up saying nothing to him.

I should have found the way to tell you how I felt  

Now the one I'm telling is myself

Source: LEIGHTON MEESTER - WORDS I COULDN'T SAY LYRICS

Voices

I really miss the voice of the piano.... and rain. Still waiting for the rain to fall. Ahhh I'm dying to hear those relaxing voices!

Today's Miracle

Well, I think I should share this experience to all of you guys. I believe it's true that you can find a miracle in every single day of your life. Maybe it's just a tiny little miracle or maybe a big one. Maybe it's not just one, but I believe that there's always one per day. It's just up to you to decide is it a miracle or not. 

Today I met a friend from my junior high, we went to different schools so it's kinda hard to meet each other. Beside, we're not good friends so it doesn't really matter for both of us. But today, unexpectedly, we met in a public transportation. I want to call it a coincidence, but somehow I know it wasn't. I thought we wouldn't talk much, but actually he got so much to talk about and so did I. He's so much nicer than I remembered he was. He's happy with his new school, he's proud of it, and I'm glad to hear it. I didn't have a single thought that I would be so happy to meet him. To be honest, I was smiling all the way home. 

For some people, they maybe think that it's usual, ordinary, nothing special. But for me, every single thing of it is special. So I might say that today's big miracle is to meet him. I know that today's writing isn't related to the picture, but I just feel like writing it. 

All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

 (Enchanted-Taylor Swift)

I'm hoping to meet you again someday, expectedly or unexpectedly. Maybe tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow. Maybe next week or next month. Next year or next decade. But I have to meet you.

A Beam of Light

taken on Vihara Dhanagun, Bogor

I just remembered a few part of Chrisye's song,  Lilin-Lilin Kecil:

"Dan kau lilin-lilin kecil
Sanggupkah kau mengganti
Sanggupkah kau memberi
Seberkas cahaya

Dan kau lilin-lilin kecil
Sanggupkah kau berpijar
Sanggupkah kau menyengat
Seisi dunia"